Currently Reading Wasted: A Memoir of Anorexia and Bulimia (P.S.) By Marya Hornbacher see related

First of all I would like to thank all of you for your support on Friday.  I was having a really tough time.  My coworker and I went downstairs during her lunch break and I smoked a bowl.  I rarely smoke so I was pretty stoned.  Being stoned at work--all I have to say about that is WOW. 

Ito much/to busy.  I don't really associate with many people.  I am irritable and I prefer to be alone.  But when I am alone I want to be with someone.  UGH I am confused.  Anyways tonight I am moving out for good.  Most of my stuff is already at my parents but we need to get me matress/dresser/ and remainder of bedding.  I packed all weekend I don't feel like doing what I have to do t don't know why but I am chronically sad and depressed.  I think it may be a combination of not eating/drinking all night.  Kill me. Well now that I will be at my parents at least the drinking will cease, but the only benefit I see out of that is better sleep and less calories.  Bad part is my mom will hound me more about my weight.  Well I am off to check your updates now!  Luv yas!