I've decided to stop being a baby and I am going to give you more current updates on my weight.

Starting Weight: 140

CW 126

Yea so I went to the bar last night and when I got home my roomie was waiting on for me and started hounding me about the weight issue again.  She's like "i know what your doing, I know your throwing up and not eating because you are getting so skinny".  I was mildly drunk at the time so I don't recall much of the conversation.  UGH Anyways, I am a bit hung over right now.  SOrry, gotta make it short

INTAKE

iced chai with skim         60

skinny cow ice cream     80

Lunch                           230

Sun Chips                    140

TOTAL: 510

Fuck fuck fuck FUCK!!!

OK, sorry I am very pissed at myself.  Ok here it goes.  I ate some McD french fries.  Not just a couple, but like a fourth of a medium sized fry!  There are 380 cals total in a fry so a fourth would be 95 cals.  But since I do not know for sure I am gonna tack on 50 extra cals just to be safe.  I don't know why I did it! I finally reilized what I was doing and threw the rest away. I am horrible girls.

So did anyone hear that Lindsay Lohan got arrested again.  What an idiot.  SHe makes a big show of walking around with that sobreity bracelet only to get drunk and start chasing the mom of her assistant who resigned.  Then to find cocaine?  WHen is this bitch gonna learn?

Anyways here is my intake:

Sun Chips          140

Egg                        69

1/4 Fries            145

lunch                   230

TOTAL       584 (BAD!!)

THINSPO OF THE DAY

The Lovely Kate Moss

AHHH  so I really don't know what to do.  I am just soooo sick of trying.  Today  in math my teacher was sugesting I drop the class.  YEa, AGAIN.  This has been my 3rd, no maybe 4th time enrolling.  I really do not know what to do.  I hate math it makes no sense to me.  Its not like i don't try I do.  I should be working on that right now rather than working on xanga.  Oh fucking well.  So I went up north with my parents this weekend and am pleased to say I had a very nice relaxing time.  I ate waaaay to much though I just know it, i've gained.  So now I will be restricting to get rid of this extra fat.  On the way home my mom was saying she is worried because I am getting to thin again.  I told her i'm fine.  SHe doesn't believe me she wants me to get help.  I am sick of therapists.  SO SICK of them!  Well I hope all if well gals!

INTAKE

Sun Chips 140

1 egg         69

Smart Ones  180

skinnycow bar  80

TOTAL:   469 Cals

Thinspo of the Day

Eva Longoria

Wow so this day has royally SUCKED major.  I went out to the bar last night and my friend bought me some drinks amd I got hammered.  I woke up this morning practically still drunk.  Took a shower, got to work.  Come to find out I lost $175 to overdraft charges.  Then get this-my roommate texts me saying that my cat is dragging around a bag of weed.  I basically cal her an idiot because the "weed" is actually catnip that I had under my bed.  But nooooo she can't let it die there.  She tells me "we'll see what the cops have to say about it"  I was like i'll tell you right now: they will laugh in your face because it is catnip.  Then with that issue aside she totally goes off on me.  I am moving out at the end of the month but thats not good enough.  She texts me again saying "I want you and your shit out of this house, I am changing the locks on the doors and when you pack you need to have someone with you. I am sick of seeing vomit in the toilet and  I think you need to address your drinking habits. "  I was like WOW.  I had no idea she knew.  I mean I guess I should've been more careful.  I Always just wiped the seat off, I did a half assed job though overall.  I tried to tell her I was sick for a few weeks and she didn't buy it.  Who could blame her?  So her and I went back and forth like this for awhile.  In the end though, we decided to call a truce which made me happier than you know.  I have been dwelling on this roomate thing for weeks now and where has it got me?  INto the world of negativity, thats where.  TOPIC CLOSED

Food Wise, I've been doing alright.  Its alcohol I get most of my cals from.  When is everyones hardest binge time?  Mine is usually right after work.  Thats why I go to school after work, keeps me busy.  If I go home, I eat.  My stomach is growling right now as I write this.  Feels good. 

INTAKE

Sun Chips    140 cals

Lean Cuisine    230cals

1 egg               69 cals

1/2 rootbeer float (bad i know) 120

TOTAL 560 cals

Ok gotta make this quick, i'm meeting my friend for drinks.  Thanks for those who comment on my site.  It really does encourage me and I try to comment y'all as much as possible...XOXO Luv yas!

INTAKE

Sun chips    140 cals

Lean cuisine  230 cals

1 egg             69 cals

TOTAL 439.